Precious Baby

Posted on: February 13, 2013 Written by
Precious Baby
      Photography by: William Johnston from iStock    

Life is fragile.

You never know

When tragedies come

Or when people will go.

Baby boy

Born too soon

You were so fragile-looking

Shiny, tiny, breathless, lifeless.

How I longed to hold you

But I was afraid

That I might break you more.

I awoke in the middle of the night

Realizing that I had not (held you)

And wept.

It was too late.

They had taken you away.

But I took solace in

The thought that Jesus

Was holding you in heaven.

I also knew

That after tests

You would be returned to me

For burial.

I hoped that then

I could hold you.

You were, and I did.

You were so small,

Lying in my palm

But strangely with more form,

So perfectly formed

For your age.

All the fingers and toes,

All the nails in place.

But no working heart,

No breath of life in you.

Isaac shared a feather with you

To play with in heaven.

The hummingbird watched

As we buried you,

Darting back and forth.

Emerald green, fading to black,

Piercing eyes.

He made me think of

Heavenly beings from prophecy.

He watched us the whole time,

Darting back and forth.

You reminded me

That life is fleeting

I need to enjoy

The children I have with me now.

For you are already

Enjoying the Lord,

And we will meet you someday!

My precious baby Reuben.

© 2013 Thrive.

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About the author

Maria and her husband work with Wycliffe Bible Translators in Peru. They first worked as Literacy Specialists among the Wanca Quechua speakers, and now work in Leader Development to help build up the Bible Translation Movement in Latin America. They have 3 children on earth, 2 of whom are in college in the US. Maria also finds joy in teaching English and being involved in music at their international church.

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  • Melanie

    Thank you for sharing your pain. I lost my first baby before I could hold it in my arms. God has now blessed us with another baby who brings many smiles. But the weeping cherry is growing in our yard in memory of the first baby I carried.

    • Maria

      A weeping cherry — what a beautiful reminder! It was now over 10 years ago that Reuben came and went, and I have a wooden cross that was his grave marker that I carry back and forth with me when we move. I so look forward to meeting him in heaven!

  • Rachel

    This made me cry, Maria, even before I was half way through and figured out it was you. I can’t believe that your Reuben is 10 already. He’s probably playing up in heaven with my Elijah who came & went 9 years ago. It’s good to remember them, and SO good to rejoice in the children that God has given us to enjoy in the here and now.
    Thank you for sharing your heart.

    • Maria

      Reuben and Elijah, climbing trees together, playing hide and seek, soccer, etc, all in a place where all is joy. 🙂