The God Who is Wind

Posted on: July 18, 2012 Written by
The God Who is Wind
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You are in the doldrums.

It’s a quiet place, but restless.

For miles and miles, nothing moves. In fact, there is very little that could move. There is only the relentless bobbing of blue waves and you.

You paddle furiously in this salty ocean. Trying to move yourself. But nothing happens. You must wait for the wind.

It’s hot. You swear blisters form on your skin whenever you even think about going outside. You eat popsicles and ice cream for lunch and dinner. You guzzle water and visit air conditioned coffee shops.

The air is stale and thick. Pollution haze hangs like a gossamer curtain in the air around you. The shriveled leaves hang, suspended and still on their tree branches.

You turn your fans on their highest speeds. Every chair, every bed is positioned directly underneath them to catch the fullest effect.

But they are no substitute for true, cleansing, cooling wind.

When I was a little girl, friends and I were playing outside in a large field. The summer day was sunny and warm. Suddenly a breeze stirred through the trees and wrapped itself around us. Closing my eyes, I lifted my face to the sun and felt nothing but wind. It was as if the breeze were going through me. I felt it play with my eyelashes.

I thought about how in Acts God came to the disciples who were waiting for His presence. He came to them like a wind.

And I wondered if it weren’t God playing with my eyelashes just then, not the wind.

The wind is capricious, Jesus said. And so is the birth given by the Spirit. It comes and goes – from where you cannot tell and to where you do not know. You hear the sound of it, the rustle of soul and heart like leaves on tree branches.

When it’s with us, we are delighted. But then it deserts us, absconds without a warning or explanation. And we are left stranded in boats built to be caressed by the wind. We suffocate in air too thick to breathe. And we wonder where He has gone, our impulsive wind.

We wait and we sweat and we paddle to no effect.

Even a little breeze would do.

 

© 2012 Women of the Harvest.

Questions to Consider: Are you waiting for the wind? How do you deal with the Holy Spirit’s capriciousness–its sudden and unaccountable changes? Have you ever found yourself in the midst of a crisis of faith as you wait for “even a little breeze”?



About the author

Sarah Kidd lives and works in South Asia, sipping chai, building relationships, and teaching English. In the middle of bellowing cows, invading bugs, and too many awkward moments to number she’s trying to find moments of silence in which listening is possible. She writes about her journey – the crazy and the quiet – at www.sarah-kidd.com.

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  • Katie Peacock

    Well said.

  • Thanks for your article Sarah. I love the intro to your piece. I have several times in my life been where you described. Blisters were forming on my emotional, spiritual and intellectual mind. My stillness and God silence was cause at times by accidents in life that seemed to be meaningless to anything important to life, while other times the God silence came from the mean attempt from “Christians” to destroy my life and cause problems… the jealous and insecure.

    “Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life.” Diane, a friend shared with me. “Goodness?” I wailed.
    “This is not good!” I looked at her in disbelief that she would even say something like this.

    “All I know, Tena, Is that God wants to tailgate your life with his goodness”. I walked away comforted only a little. ‘What you look for is what you will find.” Her voice trailed to quiet certainty.

    Those words lingered in my wanting and aching heart. I started looking for ways that God was blessing my life. Yes, I did see it. God’s blessing on my life. Sometimes it was as small as a good nights sleep. Sometimes it was simple the confirmation that I was walking down the hot, dusty road that God intended for me to walk. God’s simple blessings were the breezes that I was longing for to confirm my what I was really wondering….Is God really there.

    “God’s goodness and mercy will tailgate you all the days of your life.” You will find what you are looking for.

    He DOES love you.

    • Tena! I love that paraphrase of the verse – God’s goodness and mercy tailgating us! How vivid and beautiful. 🙂