Immigrant Girl

Posted on: June 13, 2012 Written by
Immigrant Girl
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It´s not what I thought it would be

This leaving my heart on foreign soil.

I expected to have my heart change and I embrace that.

 

But this Immigrant Child of mine

Has a foreign stamp on her I hardly recognize

She´s him and me and…

…and something else.

Something vaguely familiar

(Because I have lived in many places, too.)

But it left a different impression on her

A mysteriously ethnic mark on her soul…

 

It´s beyond her “native speaker” ability in the language

That is way too obvious, simplistic

It´s ways of thought, values-based decisions (on values different from mine)

Relational patterns, things held dear, things subconscious

Something colorful & mystical to me.

 

Sometimes she feels completely other-worldly

She doesn´t fight my causes, defend the same things I hold dear,

Get motivated by the things I do,

Or cheer for the same teams as I.

 

And though I thought I wasn´t nationalistic about my home country

When she attacked it

I defended it!

I didn´t anticipate that.

 

She is her own world, her own person

And she´s making her own life with her God.

 

So I lay things at the altar I didn´t expect;

There are many of them.

And when I lay down the right to understand her as her mother

It is a holy moment.

 

It is a holy moment of sacred surrender,

And of a tender trust in the One who loved her first.

In the One who completely understands her.

 

Her destiny is still unclear.

But as I release my right to understand her

Tears begin to fall…

And I decide, I make a choice

To open-handedly and open-heartedly celebrate

My Immigrant Girl.

 

© 2012 Women of the Harvest.

Questions to Consider: Poetry often captures the deeper emotion; what does this piece stir up in you?  As you reflect on the MKs you know, does  the “immigrant child” concept ring true?



About the author

Pam Sider lives in Spain and together with her husband coaches Latinos working with non-profits in the NAME region. With almost 24 years of overseas experience and 3 TCK's, her blog reflects her "modern day psalmist" approach to the multiple issues of life & faith in all things cross cultural. You can read more about it at: http://www.alifeofinterest.com

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